Four Poems — distributed 3-20-1991

Bill distributed these four poems on a flier in March of 1991. His introductions are in above each.

Dear friends,

Poetry has been good for me lately. This first day of spring seems right for collecting a few and sharing them with some of you. I owe some of you written copies of one or another of these. Others of you I simply share these with as time and circumstances (including our April trip East) permit.

Peace/love, Bill

(Asilomar, by the sea, 12-9-90, with friend Jon).

All engulfing song of surf,
all encompassing, sequined sky -
my ears and eyes applaud
as my soul
heaves
sigh
after sigh
after
deep and wide
sigh.

(On my mail route, 2-4-91, after a lovely, clumsy moment shared with a beautiful human being, one of my postal patrons)

How long do we have to say anything?
How long do we have to wonder
 if these words or those words
 are right or wrong?
How long do we have to discover
 there may be no right,
 no wrong?
How long do we have to embrace
 silence?
How long do we have to discover
 there may be all the time we need?
How long do we have
to wonder
how long we have?

(On Mt. Tamalpais, March 4th, 1991, early in the morning in a wild storm, by myself, near a cabin called “Peace in the Woods” where I was sharing a weekend with friends Jon, Bill and Frank)

March forth,
dance on
and sign your song.

March forth
dance on,
the journey's long.

March forth,
dance on
and as you do,

remember, friend,
somewhere,
I'm marching,
dancing,
singing, too.

(First Unitarian Church of Berkeley, 2-24-91, during and after the 8:30 am Meditation Service, as later published and illustrated in the News Bulletin of the church)

Two chairs
by the "In Memoriam" wall,
in dialogue,
in relationship.

No persons present,
but what presence
of spirit
of souls
of silence

as the phoenix
takes wing
between the songs
of the windblown branches and leaves
of the deeply rooted
many trees
of life.

Retirement and Unretirement (An April 1st Tale) 1990

I retired April 1st [1990].

For years I planned to begin retirement with a walking bridge between the world of work and a world beyond work. I would push a mail cart from San Francisco to the United Nations in support of peace and the U.N., from April 25 to October 24. But on April 26, at Martin Luther King, Jr., Park in Berkeley, under the city’s U.N. flag, I announced that I would not walk.

The doubts and fears about a solo walk which I had tried to push aside had finally overcome the energy of my dream, hopes and preparations. I became depressed and distressingly suicidal. For about two weeks I stewed in my own juices, ashamed, disappointed in myself and wanting to die.

Years ago my older brother had killed himself in his late twenties. I knew how hard that was on family and friends. That knowledge, my deep belief in the preceiousness of life, support from famly and close friends, and some crisis thereapy led me to loking for some way out of what felt like a self-made trap.

When I had announced the cancellation of the walk, our postmaster said something about the people on my route would like me back. Now I decided to find out whether there was a way to cancel my as yet incomplete retirment process. There was. I went for it.

June 9 I went back to work on my old route through a process part bureaucratic, part very human and part miraculous. I am still depressed with varing ups and downs. I am glad to be alive and back on my “appointed rounds”. Acceptance and affirmation from postal workers and patrons have been helpful factors for which I am grateful. I have no dates, calendars nor slogans for any second retirement. One day at a time sounds good.

I am in theapy and counseling seeking healing and understanding. Instead of walking “from sea to shining sea” I am on our inner peace pilgrimage across a personal continent of questions and cofusion, perhaps a pilgrimage from me to shining me.

Possible moral to this tale: Don’t put all your retirement legs behind one cart.

Bill Trampleasure

Five Ogunquit Poems, 1993

Ogunquit, 11-6-1993

The museum is closed,
winterized.

Benches
and some of the sculpture garden critters
are wrapped snugly in blue plastic,
cocoons, hibernating until spring,
with here and there
a head, tail or toenail showing.

Some statues, pieces of scupture,
have been released
from their concrete anchorages
and hidden away
somewhere
in deeper hibernation.

The anchorages, foundations
remain
for me to choose my place to stand.

Shall I be "The War Machine",
facing the beauty of the ocean
and the sunrise?

Or shall I be the "Man from Assissi",
an instrument of peace,
calling others to join me
and all those others
already in the planetary pageant of peace?

Will you join us in
building bridges,
reflecting in and on ponds
(at Walden and elsewhere)

sitting in the sun
singing our songs

continuing our own
personal peace pilgrimages
along well traveled
or less well traveled paths

making our choices
taking our chances

risking our self-images

inhaling and exhaling
endless "Thank yous"?

Ogunquit, 11-6-1993

360 will do
or take in the view
around you

360 will do
to take in the view
within you

and if 360
is beyond you,
click off one or two

one or two
clicks of difference
may just do
to expand
  or create anew
  your point of view

Agamenticus Mountain, 11-11-1993, Veterans Day

Foot-on-moon disease
make me ill at ease.

What is this mostly
macho/military
race for space?

Why not embrace
the whole race
here on Mother Earth
as one?

Then
when that's done,

maybe some cosmic critters
from another place
will want to drop in
and get to know us
face to face

12-4-1993, Marginal Way and Bread & Roses

Christmas (A definition by an un-christian to those whom it may concern

Christmas
is living
the love we have received

Christmas
is forgiving
when we feel
we've been deceived

Christmas
is unloading
and feeling so relieved

Christmas
is loving
the life we have received

12-3-1993, Top of the Way (a bench)

San Francisco
I've been to the top
of your Mark.
I've gloried in its
wonderous view.

And Boston,
I've been to the top
of your Hub.
I love what
you can do.

But on this finestkind
Ogunquit day,
seated at the top
of its Marginal Way,
I must confess,
when all is said and done,
The Top of the Way
is my personal
Number One.

A have a rosy view

I have a rosy view
out to Talmapais and the Golden Gate
where the mountain
meets the sea.
The Sleeping Princess
may yet swing free
out through the GAte
to an ocean of emotion
with a peaceful bent.
Perhaps all of time
has been well spent.

A single rose
a single word
a single silent space

A single woman
 single man
A coupled life embrace.

Two persons commune
on the Rose Garden bench,
letting their fingers
do the talking.

All around
silent roses
sign to us
of life's joyful beauty
embracing
its thorny perplexities
and paradoxes.

(By Bill, the postal poet, in celebration of the Berkeley Rose Garden’s first half-century. 1987)

Plaque Honoring printing of Signatory copies of UN Charter in 1945

UN Charter Plaque at UC Printing Office

Located at the University of Calilfornia  printing office on Oxford Street at Center St, Berkeley, CA.

The plaque reads:

Presented to the University of California Printing Services

Printer of the Signatory Copies of the

Charter of the United Nations and

Statue of the International Court of Justice

Recognized by United Nations Association of the United States of America, East Bay Chapter on the 50th Anniversary of the June 26, 1945 Signing

A Fairy-Land of Moon-Light

Memory Hikes Through Marin

“A Fairy-Land of Moon-Light”

By Calvin Roy Trampleasure

[circa March 1917]

It was a beautiful day in mid-September. We had been to the top of Twin Peaks in the morning, just by way of an appetizer for’ the trip we had planned for later in the day.

The air had been particularly clear and free from fog, so it was with great anticipation that we dropped from the train in Mill Valley late that afternoon.

We chose the easiest way as a starter, and climbing the steps back of the depot, followed along the smooth winding road that leads, always upward, to the big water tank. Here it becomes discouraged and dwindles to a trail, at first broad and open, then as it ascends more steeply, shut in narrowly by the thick-growing chaparral.

Reaching the rail-road we decided to hit the ties for a ways — cutting across the “bow-knot” and continuing to the main ridge. Here our real work began, as we left the track end started to climb. We climbed rapidly (at first) partly out of respect to the presence of a flock of mosquitoes that seemed desirous of making our acquaintance. Either they were drowned in the perspiration our haste induced, or were overcome by the altitude; at any rate we soon forgot then in contemplation of the rapidly changing scene around us.

Presently the sun sank behind the hills to the West, and as we reached the top of the ridge the lengthening shadows crept slowly across the marshes — the waters of the bay turned to a ruffled gray, having the appearance of a huge field of wind-roughened ice. Beyond, the Berkeley Hills showed through the deepening haze.

From the Tavern we hastened to the top, and arrived just as the sun, now turned a red-gold ball, touched the horizon. Here it paused for a moment, and then, like a disc of red parafine, seemed to melt from sight, merging sky and sea in a coppery-red glow. Gradually the light faded, and now our eyes turned Eastward.

Above the dim outlines of Mt. Diablo the almost-full moon was rising and spreading a path of silver across the bay. As we stood and watched, the hills lost their ruggedness, as though a giant hand had smoothed them and filled the hollows with a gray softness. The twilight deepened and changed to night — while in the little suburban towns at our feet, myriads of lights twinkled forth, till the country around seemed like a vast calm sea, reflecting the stars above.

Away to the East the lights of Vallejo shone brightly. The far shore-line of San Pablo bay was traced by the flickering headlight of an Ess-Pee train. The lights of Richmond stretched away in ordered lines — and so on through Berkeley, Oakland, and across the bay from the ferry to far down the beach — the long reach of Golden Gate Park standing out like a black patch in a sea of light. Seaward, the light on the Farallines[1] flashed it’s warning, while along the horizon a faint glow still told the fare-well of the setting sun.

As the moon rose higher, the rocks and brown fields below loomed ghost-like, taking strange shapes and forms. And over all a warm North wind blew softly — while from the marshes rose the joyful frog-chorus, singing songs of praise to the beautiful night.

Save for voices that now and then came faintly from the Tavern below, we seemed alone in fairy-land – a fairy-land of moon-light. We were loth to leave, but the wind vial now freshening and growing cooler, so we began the home-ward trip.

Down the track we started, past the little spring-fed streams that sparkled and splashed noisily. As we reached the cut in the main ridge and swung to the south, we noticed, along the upper pipe-line, the occasional flash of an electric light, showing that at least a few besides ourselves were enjoying the wondrous beauty of the night. Reaching the pipe-line we walked slowly, now treading the open moon-lit trail, and now winding through a dense grove of redwoods, where hardly a moon-beam shone, and the air was heavy and warm with the absorbed heat of the day.

If you’ve never seen the old mountain or the country around it in the light of a full moon, you have missed seeing it in one of it’s most delightful moods. Try it during the next full moon and you’ll not be disappointed. At this writing the next chance will come on Saturday, April 7th.

Calvin. R. Trampleasure,
Seneca Hotel,
San Francisco.

[1]: Farollon

Calvin Roy Trampleasure was Bill Trampleasure’s father.

Bill reading some of his poems

One of my projects in the past couple years has been to record my dad reading some of his poems. We started on those in his book Earth CommUNity I Love You. I’m posting a few here:

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