Bill’s Memorial Service(s) — hold the date

The Trampleasure family is planning two memorial services for friends and family.

The main service will be on Sunday, December 2nd at 1:30 at the Unitarian Universalist Church of Berkeley (in Kensington). We will post more details of this event soon, but wanted people to know to save the date.

We are holding a smaller, family and close friends service on Sunday, November 11th at UC Berkeley. While we’re not being explicit about who “close friends” are, we would also like people who are not able to attend the December 2nd service to feel welcome.

The November 11th (Armistice Day) service will be held at one of Bill’s favorite locations at UC Berkeley, “the Golden Tree”–a tall gingko tree outside of Gianini Hall (see map below). We will gather at 11:00 AM, in recognition of the armistice that ended World War 1.

Those who are up for a hike are invited to join at 9:00 AM for a two-mile hike to the Big C, another of Bill’s favorite places at UC. The Big C is on the hill behind the Greek Theater and Memorial Stadium. The hike is about one mile each way, with about 600 feet of climbing on the way up.

After the 11:00 service, attendees are invited to join at Yali’s Cafe for coffee/tea/snacks/conversation. Yali’s was one of Bill’s favorite Cafe.


View Bill’s Memorial Service in a larger map, with more details of locations.

on second winds

Cafe Ariel, 12/28/92

Dear All,

My life has been a slow unfolding of the last gift I received from my Father. On his death bed one day in 1952 he told me that “second wind always comes”. He was speaking specifically to cross-country running. But as I have persevered on my sometimes soaring, sometimes stuttering personal peace pilgrimage, I have learned that the truth of “second wind” blows everywhere, always.

It is as simple as the rhythm of inhaling and exhaling once, twice…who knows how many times? It is as simple as sunrise and sunset – as winter, spring, summer, fall.

It is as tangible and miraculous, for me, as:

  1. my second retirement, October 2, 1992, from 29 years of “appointed rounds” which ended gloriously with six years within the glow of Berkeley’s Rose Garden neighborhood
  2. the repeated “second winds” necessary for the “keeping-on-keeping-on” commitment to being mated which Mary Lee and I have been sharing these 37 years of gift after gift
  3. the rooted and winged lives of Calvin James, Lee Stephen and Grace Virginia Trampleasure (Yes, Mary Lee, we did some things right! Yes, my offspring, your lives and loves have often filled the sails on my becalmed vessel of vision.)
  4. my promising week joining the “inaugural dance” in D.C. (A President named Bill can’t be all bad. A poet named Maya Angelou is worth hearing in person. A sister-in-law’s hospitality within Metro distance of the celebrations can’t be ignored. Any chance to visit Tom Jefferson again must be seized. After all, what’s a retirement for?)

Then sudden deaths of two good friends recently within weeks of each other, the memorial service celebration for one in Paradise, California, and the coincidental visit to the Trampleasure family plot in Sunset View Cemetery in Corning, California, have added the only amendment necessary to find doctrine of “second wind”. The time comes, for us all, when “second wind” fades and suddenly it is the sustaining presence of “afterglow” that lights our way. (See “Frank and Ernest” comic attached.) [ed: I’ll try to find this and attach it]

As this poet once wrote, “go and glow, touch and torch”.

Peace, love, shalom, hallelujah, Bill

P.S. 1993’s 5th Sundays (1/31, 5/30, 8/29, 10/31) from 7:30 to 9:30 pm shall be Second Wind/Afterglow evenings at 1423. Join us? And join my gentle crusade to “Take Back the Mails” from domination by bulk business mail (“junk”) by writing more love letters, letters to editors and goverments, friendly postcards and such. TBTM!

Three poems about love

love

is what matters

love

is what counts

win, lose or draw

it’s love

that amounts

to something

to everything

to all

in this life

so let’s live

and let love

* * *

here and now

we love and live

or here and now

we die

no far, fair land

no time sublime

beneath some cloudless sky

but here and now

wind blown,

storm tossed

we live

through love

then die

* * *

“Love endures all things”

but love likes to laugh and smile, too

and love doesn’t need all the things we do

just to prove that it can endure them

like flowers

they may need us to manure them

sometimes

but sun and rain

and even a kind word or gentle touch

have been heard to add much

to the blooming miracle

There is mystery in life

There is mystery in life
And the myth trees that we grow
can go only so far
to set our dark aglow

                but the candle born in me
                and the candle born in you
                may be just the touches needed
                to torch some pilgrim’s view
                  go and glow, touch and torch

there is mystery in life
and our time from birth to death
is a vulnerable variable – hanging –
on each and every breath

                but the stillborn child’s silence
                and the centenarian’s last gasp
                are both righteous, beautiful truths
                God alone can fully graph
                  Go and glow, touch and torch

there is mystery in life
tears of joy join sorrow’s tears
and our faith is sorely tested
by our pains, our doubts, our fears

                but nothing – nothing –
                now or later
                nothing – nothing –
                great or small
                can separate us eternally
                from God’s love
                surrounding all
                  Go and glow, touch and torch

 

Written after a friend lost her newborn daughter in the 1980’s

I am Bill…

I am Bill
I am growing
I love you all,
that I’m knowing
and beyond that
there is mystery and hope

you are each
quite like me
yet very differently
with your own
special ways
to grow and grope

So I’ll try again, my friends,
to watch my mouth,
my means and ends,
as we “Keep on Keeping on”,
as we care and cope.

date unknown

Golden Tree

Golden Tree 2010
Golden Tree, December 12, 2010

        there
      is     a
glorious golden tree
 still so alive for me
    these many years
 since first I glimpsed
    its shimmering,
    glimmering glory
      that I know
      it will glow
        and grow
        ever  so
     long after all
    the leaves fall
     long after all
          the
         trees
         fall
          long
         after
          all

This poem has appeared in several books.

Mary and Bill, December 12, 2010
Mary and Bill, December 12, 2010

Four Poems — distributed 3-20-1991

Bill distributed these four poems on a flier in March of 1991. His introductions are in above each.

Dear friends,

Poetry has been good for me lately. This first day of spring seems right for collecting a few and sharing them with some of you. I owe some of you written copies of one or another of these. Others of you I simply share these with as time and circumstances (including our April trip East) permit.

Peace/love, Bill

(Asilomar, by the sea, 12-9-90, with friend Jon).

All engulfing song of surf,
all encompassing, sequined sky -
my ears and eyes applaud
as my soul
heaves
sigh
after sigh
after
deep and wide
sigh.

(On my mail route, 2-4-91, after a lovely, clumsy moment shared with a beautiful human being, one of my postal patrons)

How long do we have to say anything?
How long do we have to wonder
 if these words or those words
 are right or wrong?
How long do we have to discover
 there may be no right,
 no wrong?
How long do we have to embrace
 silence?
How long do we have to discover
 there may be all the time we need?
How long do we have
to wonder
how long we have?

(On Mt. Tamalpais, March 4th, 1991, early in the morning in a wild storm, by myself, near a cabin called “Peace in the Woods” where I was sharing a weekend with friends Jon, Bill and Frank)

March forth,
dance on
and sign your song.

March forth
dance on,
the journey's long.

March forth,
dance on
and as you do,

remember, friend,
somewhere,
I'm marching,
dancing,
singing, too.

(First Unitarian Church of Berkeley, 2-24-91, during and after the 8:30 am Meditation Service, as later published and illustrated in the News Bulletin of the church)

Two chairs
by the "In Memoriam" wall,
in dialogue,
in relationship.

No persons present,
but what presence
of spirit
of souls
of silence

as the phoenix
takes wing
between the songs
of the windblown branches and leaves
of the deeply rooted
many trees
of life.

Retirement and Unretirement (An April 1st Tale) 1990

I retired April 1st [1990].

For years I planned to begin retirement with a walking bridge between the world of work and a world beyond work. I would push a mail cart from San Francisco to the United Nations in support of peace and the U.N., from April 25 to October 24. But on April 26, at Martin Luther King, Jr., Park in Berkeley, under the city’s U.N. flag, I announced that I would not walk.

The doubts and fears about a solo walk which I had tried to push aside had finally overcome the energy of my dream, hopes and preparations. I became depressed and distressingly suicidal. For about two weeks I stewed in my own juices, ashamed, disappointed in myself and wanting to die.

Years ago my older brother had killed himself in his late twenties. I knew how hard that was on family and friends. That knowledge, my deep belief in the preceiousness of life, support from famly and close friends, and some crisis thereapy led me to loking for some way out of what felt like a self-made trap.

When I had announced the cancellation of the walk, our postmaster said something about the people on my route would like me back. Now I decided to find out whether there was a way to cancel my as yet incomplete retirment process. There was. I went for it.

June 9 I went back to work on my old route through a process part bureaucratic, part very human and part miraculous. I am still depressed with varing ups and downs. I am glad to be alive and back on my “appointed rounds”. Acceptance and affirmation from postal workers and patrons have been helpful factors for which I am grateful. I have no dates, calendars nor slogans for any second retirement. One day at a time sounds good.

I am in theapy and counseling seeking healing and understanding. Instead of walking “from sea to shining sea” I am on our inner peace pilgrimage across a personal continent of questions and cofusion, perhaps a pilgrimage from me to shining me.

Possible moral to this tale: Don’t put all your retirement legs behind one cart.

Bill Trampleasure

Five Ogunquit Poems, 1993

Ogunquit, 11-6-1993

The museum is closed,
winterized.

Benches
and some of the sculpture garden critters
are wrapped snugly in blue plastic,
cocoons, hibernating until spring,
with here and there
a head, tail or toenail showing.

Some statues, pieces of scupture,
have been released
from their concrete anchorages
and hidden away
somewhere
in deeper hibernation.

The anchorages, foundations
remain
for me to choose my place to stand.

Shall I be "The War Machine",
facing the beauty of the ocean
and the sunrise?

Or shall I be the "Man from Assissi",
an instrument of peace,
calling others to join me
and all those others
already in the planetary pageant of peace?

Will you join us in
building bridges,
reflecting in and on ponds
(at Walden and elsewhere)

sitting in the sun
singing our songs

continuing our own
personal peace pilgrimages
along well traveled
or less well traveled paths

making our choices
taking our chances

risking our self-images

inhaling and exhaling
endless "Thank yous"?

Ogunquit, 11-6-1993

360 will do
or take in the view
around you

360 will do
to take in the view
within you

and if 360
is beyond you,
click off one or two

one or two
clicks of difference
may just do
to expand
  or create anew
  your point of view

Agamenticus Mountain, 11-11-1993, Veterans Day

Foot-on-moon disease
make me ill at ease.

What is this mostly
macho/military
race for space?

Why not embrace
the whole race
here on Mother Earth
as one?

Then
when that's done,

maybe some cosmic critters
from another place
will want to drop in
and get to know us
face to face

12-4-1993, Marginal Way and Bread & Roses

Christmas (A definition by an un-christian to those whom it may concern

Christmas
is living
the love we have received

Christmas
is forgiving
when we feel
we've been deceived

Christmas
is unloading
and feeling so relieved

Christmas
is loving
the life we have received

12-3-1993, Top of the Way (a bench)

San Francisco
I've been to the top
of your Mark.
I've gloried in its
wonderous view.

And Boston,
I've been to the top
of your Hub.
I love what
you can do.

But on this finestkind
Ogunquit day,
seated at the top
of its Marginal Way,
I must confess,
when all is said and done,
The Top of the Way
is my personal
Number One.